Finding My Mantra

I’m not holding my breath, but I may have finally made a breakthrough with remembering to take my medication! If you have followed this entire dramatic saga, you’ll know that one of my few failures with hypnosis has been using it for improving my memory to this end. I thought I’d tried everything from a flat out command script, to visualisation, to symbolism, but my subconscious surprised me once again yesterday with a tack I hadn’t tried before: a mantra.

I was in the middle of one of my normal daily hypnotic trances, forming a suggestion to remember my medication, when all of a sudden, my thoughts started to run in a loop and repeat themselves over and over again. This is interesting, I thought, and, as my subconscious is typically spot on about these things, I just went with it. The mantra went something like this “from the moment you enter you will be hyper aware.” Translation: “from the moment I enter the kitchen (where my pillbox lives) every morning, I will be hyper aware of my need to take my medication before I leave the house.” I just thought it over and over again for about twenty minutes. Even once I emerged from trance, I could still hear it over and over again for at least five minutes. Then, I carried on with my day and went to sleep last night without thinking any more about it.

As I performed my morning induction today, I began to see the outline of the Tesseract again (the symbol I had mentally linked with my pillbox). This wasn’t too exciting as this happens nearly every time I hypnotise myself. It generally causes me to think about taking my medication while I’m in trance, and immediately forgetting it as soon as I leave it. The same thing happened today except that the moment I walked out of the house, I felt like someone had yanked me back with a shepherd’s crook. I needed to go back and get my pills. I was already running late, but this was important enough that I went back into the house and grabbed my drugs. “I think it finally worked. I remembered to get my pills.” I told my mom as I headed back toward the garage. “What worked? What did you do?” she wanted to know. I told her that I wasn’t sure if it was a coincidence or not, so I would tell her later once I knew for certain.

I really hope this isn’t a fluke or a one-time thing. I’m not sure if I should re-do the mantra later today to reinforce it or leave things as they lie. I don’t want to spook my subconscious and remind it that it’s really struggled with these suggestions before. I guess that’s the trouble with being your own hypnotherapist: I have no one to consult about these things. I think maybe I’ll work on something else tonight and see what happens tomorrow. I’ll keep you posted.